Can life get worse than this?? i hope not..

been thinking a lot again.. felt like a loser.. having a life with nothing much to look forward to and not a lot of thing to reminisce abt..

life's so empty.. maybe it's the freedom i miss.. tasting it again these few days made me miss it even more..

i dunno.. i just feel that there's still a lot i wanna do in life.. but i just feel that.. i'm not up to it.. that i no longer have the time for it..

man.. i'm feeling down.. i hate to admit it.. i always told myself it's all in the mind to decide if u're happy or sad regardless of what is happening and i always managed to make it cheerful.. but now.. i just wanna feel down.. to ignore everything..

Argh~

One of the worst CNY i had.. xD

sian.. had been looking forward to booking out this CNY to have fun..

while in camp.. images of going to friend house bai nian.. hanging out with friends.. watching several movies in places like west mall.. orchard.. playing cards at friend's hse... having a Great Reunion Dinner..

man.. i was so looking forward to it that i was worried my parents will find me out of home too much..

but all my hopes crumbled in these few days...

1. Almost all my friends not free.. going relative's hse to bai nian.. make me cant meet up with them.. this was the worst reason that screwed my break..
2. my friend got in a fight..
3. i was home for the rest of the time..
4. i was so bored i actually played maple.. -.-

and what made it worse?!!

1. church was postponed to fri.. and i missed it..
2. i got sick.. a little.. slight headache.. sore throat.. cough..
3. the barbed wire wounds starts to irritate me.. itchy.. little pain..
4. jumping the low wall 10 times.. gave me 2 elbows with blue-black..


man.. sth's just wrg la.. just plain wrg..

pray that the next few days b4 book in will be good..

Army Life

hmm.. so far army life been getting better and better.. lots more pumping.. lots more pull-ups.. lots more everything..

some highlights of the last week so far:

100-200 push-ups a day
abt 10 pull-ups a day
more admin time
arcade.. computerised shooting..
movie.. white chicks..
lots of running from places to places..

!!GREATEST HIGHTLIGHT!!
today's activities b4 book-out

SOC [ Standard Obstacle Course ]
run 700m, do 11 obstacles and then run another 600m..

but we only did 200m in front and behind instead of 700m and 600m...
but that was bad enough.. with webby, helmet and rifle aka SBO attire, it's 6kg more.. plus restriction..

this made me injured for the 2nd time in BMTC so far..
1: i tried 10 times at the low wall to get over it.. think blood vessel burst or sth.. inner sides of elbows are red and painful..
2: the low wall gave me jelly legs.. 10 tries.. think abt it.. so when i was jumping over the barbed wires.. i tripped and fell into it.. got 2 holes in each hand and 3 'scars' on my back..

btw.. the 1st injury was stupid.. sent to clean canteen.. accidentally got quite a deep cut from a peeling corner of a table.. xD

err.. in both cases.. no medics was involved.. =x haha..

hmm.. realised it's not really a waste of time in there.. got to improve a lot abt myself..

Learnt that i should be more sensitive.. to compromise.. to endure to reach higher goals..
Improved my stamina.. strength.. obviously.. xD
Realised more about the Greatness of the Lord.. the way he changes ppl to make our life more enriching.. the way he sent rain to get trainings cancelled when i'm totally burned out.. in short, the ways he always answered my prayers..

Life could had been worse in there..

Missed going to church.. tml can go liao.. YiPee!!! =p

Regarding my resolution on vulgarites.. it's just super hard with all the things going on in there.. but persever i must!! And another thing.. i've decided to quit sth else..

Gambling for the sake of gambling.. err.. sounds weird but what it means is that.. no more singapore pools for me.. the only time i will 'gamble' would be with a bunch of friend for the sake of fun.. reason being.. The Lord seems to disapprove gambling.. has to do with idolizing of money? not sure.. but quitting is for sure.. to make my Father happy.. cause he happy, i happy.. =p

i think that's abt all le ba..

To Everyone : Happy Chinese New Year..
To Recruits : Enjoy your break.. 4 more days to book-in.. but remember.. it's 8 more days to book-out!

First Official BOOK-OUT

Today is supposed to be my first book-out if there wasn't haji..

so far.. life's quite good.. everyone's quite nice.. just that training can get tough.. can kanna very badly at times..

so far.. got my part of one of my tooth chipped off.. not obvious.. nvm..

then.. life's gonna get worse from here on..

wish me good luck.. pray for me.. tyty.. ;)

* Look Forward To Chinese New Year Break*

PS: Kh.. stop asking.. i'll nv tell u.. unless i'm offering to tell u.. xD

First time i actually enjoyed Haji... haha..

hmm.. wasn't supposed to be able to blog so soon... but thx to Haji.. we got to book out for 1day so soon.. and not 2 weeks later..

hmm.. everything okok lor.. so far my only problem in there is my own fitness.. everyone's good.. sergeants.. sergeant major.. pc... all gd... then.. meals... just nice for me... lots of water... everything ok la..

our days are also made longer in there.. quite amazing... maybe cause tekong got a different time.. a slower one.. 1 day in tekong feels like abt 5 days.. ya.. gd or bad.. u think lor.. haha..

anyway.. ok la... although i dun see anyone i know inside besides mz, song and shin.. it's gd enuff to know shin is in the same company.. and mz and song is just a few steps away.. cause we 4 all same block.. haha..

k la.. gotta go out liao.. till 21st jan ba.. that's the next book out..

bb

Last Post.. b4 NS..

As most of u would have known.. today i going NS le.. this gonna be my last post till who knows when... going for NS... not excited or anything.. just sian..

though many told me.. in NS liao, still can have a life.. but somehow, i managed to convice myself otherwise.. that in NS.. having only 1 to 2 days free in a week.. it's as good as being seperated from the rest of the world.. okok... from the rest of my friends, family and ...

but bo bian.. cant escape NS unless i got 75k.. which i dun.. and wont waste the money even if i had.. so got to accept going to NS.. try to make it enjoyable lor.. xD

so to ppl out there.. also going to NS.. take care and try to enjoy..

to ppl who are not.. take care too.. feel free to sms me anything.. i got a few mins every nite to sms and stuff.. only a few mins.. cause i no extra batt.. or maybe i should say.. sms me!! =x

lol.. i sound like i'm going off to another world or sth sia.. but that's kinda how i'm feeling actually.. =x dunno la.. just know i gonna miss having freedom.. miss going online daily to play... miss almost everything.. and miss u all..

*Just feeling sian*

Sian...

sian .. tio tagged .. lol .. ok la .. since u tink i will haf response den i respond lo .. lol .. okok write wad .. 5 things abt me . 5 frends whom u wana tag . and additional 5 resoultion. lol .may not b so much see how .

5 things abt me : hmm . i am a guy . i am 18 . i play basketball . i am not the only child . i am not tanned. can? bwahaha .later tio k by aidi and kh .ok la

1. Sometimes i think too much.. i dun make sense even to myself.. i can tink until up to age 70 and i will start thinking what am i doing... how to make life worthy.. i think a lot on such things... then when i ask ppl their opinion, they will tink i am down.. but i am not.. i just wanna make my life more worthy... (if still dun get it, ask kh.. he can explain.. lol..)

2. i am a person with few friends... ppl i know mostly i dun call friends.. they're what i call acquaintance... reason being.. friends are ppl whom i dun only know as somebody.. like "hi-bye" or "oh.. he is the Pro.. i tok to him a few times b4... we're friends!!" i feel that it takes more than that to be considered friends..

3. i haf a good sense of humour.. cold humour.. more than introducing me as john, i am introduced as the Lame One.. cause almost all the jokes i say.. probably only 1 or 2 out of 50 is actually funny.. but ok la.. ppl will still laugh lor.. just tat it's at me, not at the jokes.. xD

4. I dun like to take advantage of others, so i won't let others take advantage of me either... err.. unless u're my friend.. not acquaintance ar... lol.. small disadvantage i dun mind la.. happiness is more impt ma.. Besides, it's actually God using me to show his Love and Care for u all.. ;)

5. i am a nice guy.. not no matter what ppl say.. but cause everyone is saying it.. xD haha.. aiya.. i always try to be the nicest i can.. haha.. but i can be harsh at time.. especially when ppl does things which are inconsiderate.. dunno y.. dun ask me.. it's natural.. auto will change to harsh mood from the goody mood where everyone can bully.. lol..

ok. 5 person i wud tag.
my da ge kh. xD

actually... i cant think of anyone else to tag.. >.< haha.. how?

i'll anyhow tag ba..
da ge kh
da jie zhihui
Big kid lele
Small kid yisin
err... hmmm... who else ar?? AHH!!!
My Brother Shin!!

lol.. sry ar.. cant think of anyone else to tag.. too bad.. blame kh ba.. xD

5 resoultion... hmm..

1. To Grow into a more faithful christian.. AND!! not ever backslide..

2. No more vulgarities? err.. not even in jokes.. there got to be a gd reason y so many ppl are telling me it's wrg..

3. No more lying.. unless it's polar bear/werewolf or any other games that requires lying.. To lead a trueful life where i got nth i am ashamed to admit.

4. Err.. To save more money and time.. learn not to spend too much, but not to the exert i'm stingy.. not to waste too much time on doing nth.. slacking ard.. lead a life worthwhile..

5. Err.. To do what i am created for.. feel free to ask me if u wanna know.. ;)

okok... DONE!! NO MORE PLZ!! Doing this happens to fall in my 4th resolution of wasting time.. xD haha...