Booking Out.. Booking In

As time passes.. i realized i've slowly adapted to the army life.. dun really find booking in very annoying.. dun hate booking in as much as before..

but as for booking out.. i start to look fwd to it more and more.. start to understand what our commanders told us.. 2 hrs difference of booking out timing means a lot.. indeed, it means a lot..

been thinking a lot again recently.. especially since last book in.. i feel that there's still a lot i wish to seek.. which some i dunno what they are.. and some i cant seem to ever achieve.. somehow, sth will go wrg..

Maybe it's cause i've got too high expectations or it just a plain fact that i'm a headless fly.. thinking abt things that i dun even need to think abt.. actually i also dunno what i'm saying already.. the feeling is just like sth feels wrg.. makes me want to think a lot.. to keep to myself to think.. to think what has gone wrg.. but somehow, i could nv find answers.. cause i dun ever know what i felt is wrg.. so it's somewhat very mind-tangling.. haiz..

Been 2 more weeks...

some of u might have noticed been 14 days since i last booked out.. some of u might not cause u all r just busy with ur stuff.. but well.. just wanna say.. the last 14 days was tough.. but we [ with my rifle n my buddy and me~~.. no.. with my company.. which include shin.. haha..] got through it at last..

For generally what we did.. plz refer to shin's blog.. i lazy to type.. but here are some my highlights during my 14 days in there..

Before field camp : think nothing really amazing.. just live range which took up lots of time.. and lots of slacking.. lots and lots of rifle cleaning..

Field camp:
first day 8 km road march.. >.< tough.. but thinking abt 24km at the end of BMT.. it's ok.. first campsite.. 1 word.. no.. many many words.. super super super~~~ muddy.. stayed there for 2 days.. pity my sectionmate.. he had a mud river going right through his bar-sha [dunno how to spell it].. then third day, marched to 2nd campsite.. did more training.. then march to 3rd campsite for the nite.. nth much.. just that i started to have slight fever.. fourth day marched to some old building for tactical break.. quite shuang.. halfway through it liao.. =D

fifth day went back to 3rd campsite for more training.. nite was great!! got sth special.. those that know, gd for u.. those that dun and wan to know, ask me.. haha.. still slight fever.. xD actually.. i think some of the memorable things i had in field camp until the fifth day was slight fever for day 3,4 and 5 nite.. haha.. =x

anyway.. Day 6 came.. aka.. 14 feb.. aka.. Vday.. best day we had sia.. cannot go out with girl [for those who have], it's bad enough.. yet.. in the morning, tio tekan session.. some kanna leopard crawl through the pee area.. cause the commanders dunno the recruits pee there.. so can only suck thumb.. xD then.. for me.. during the march to the 4th campsite for trench digging, i tio heat cramp and almost fainted.. luckily i didn't.. and i got well soon.. haha.. then got to dig my own grave [].. not ez at all.. sumore had to do it in the dark.. with SBO attire on.. shag sia.. then from there.. everything quite smooth liao.. BIC was tiring but considered ez.. then when back in camp.. clean rifle like the whole day.. and stores.. then thurs was supposed to be tough but became slack.. fri throw live grenade.. like nth one.. feels like waste time.. haha.. sat tekan in the morning.. afternoon book out..

THIS WAS THE 14 DAYS.. and oh ya.. i got this red patch in my left eye when i woke up on Day6 of field camp.. dunno what it is.. not affecting me.. so dun care lor.. xD

just glad i survived it with the blessing of the lord.. few more weeks to POP.. then got abt 1wk+ of block leave.. shiok.. hope to have a chalet.. 3D2N of fun and nth else.. no lights off timing, no fall in timing and stuff.. haha..

Guess what.. Life can get worse..

losing my freedom.. bad enough.. in a very blue mood when i booked in.. just wanna get over with it.. but somehow.. things didn't go the way i planned..

yes.. like what mz said.. i was made the platoon ic.. ZZZzzzz... no way i can 'just get over and done' with it.. with certain amount of responsiblities.. with eyes on you.. there's just no way u can stay blue.. u got to be on alert...

So.. Life can get worse.. haiz..

But.. let's look at it from another view.. haha..

FOR PPL WHO CANT STAND LAMENESS, PLS SKIP THE FOLLOWING PORTION AND GO STRAIGHT TO READ THE END.


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if i wasn't made the ic.. i'll remain in a blue mood.. everyday will feel long.. but being made the ic.. slowly.. it starts to grow on u.. gives u more confidence to speak up.. makes u more enthu.. makes ur mood turn from BLUE to er... some other bright colour.. xD

in other words.. life actually got better.. in fact if u think abt it.. being a toilet ic/cleaner would be worse than being a platoon ic.. being a corridor cleaner would be worse than being a platoon ic.. being a.. err.. meal ic would be worse than being a platoon ic.. And being a platoon ic, u even get to know a lot more ppl better.. [why those are worse.. ppl in my platoon.. u ought to know.. others.. ask me if u want to know.. but.. y bother.. just go be platoon ic.. confirm better.. =x]

man.. i sound like i'm promoting the Platoon IC post.. but my point is.. somehow.. when i felt that.. everything is just screwed.. and something is done to make it even more screwed.. it actually turn out to be sth good.. sth to drag me out from that dark dark place which i wan to hide into.. to keep me from ignoring everything.. keep me from becoming suicidal.. from.. geng-ing [actually.. i dun like genging.. but well.. want to be lame.. got to go all the way.. make until everyone go -_- , -.- , =.= or =_=.. with or without the " by the side also can.. like so.. =_=".. ]


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okok.. enuff cold air liao..

Just wanna thx Lord for bringing me out of this real bad mood i had.. sometimes things, like becoming platoon ic, may seem bad.. and u may start asking Lord y is he torturing u.. but Lord has his own plans for u.. which will do wonders.. so dun ask such things.. but have faith that the Lord has planned for you a good life.. Lead each day happily.. dun be trouble.. everything has two sides to it.. ;p