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hmm.. chalet just over today.. was quite fun lor.. though i was sleeping almost half the time.. =x

Most of u should have known by now that i'm posted to Sispec.. quite what i expected and wanted lor.. of course if can, i rather dun have NS at all.. but since no choice.. can only make the best out of what i have..

OCS.. 9mth training.. ZZzzz... sumore +2mth to NS life.. no thx.. besides.. being a sir not really what i picture myself..

Sispec.. 5mths training.. no add-on.. can mingle more with recruits.. less paperwork.. more like what i want.. haha..

so anyway.. 20th march will be day 1 of my sispec life.. whether i'll manage to survive it and become a sergeant, only Lord knows.. Let's pray that i make it through happily and get to where i wanna go..

Broke now.. nth much i will be able to do for the next 2 book-outs.. but still.. if anything.. just call me lor.. i may be able to make adjustments to join u all..

hmm.. As usual.. Pray life gets better..

To all u guys out there.. Try to look on the Bright side of life.. NS is sth that's planned to be in your life.. make the best out of it.. happy or not.. u cant really escape it..

To all the girls out there.. admin work is seriously better.. sian it may be.. u can job-hop.. but we cant.. so.. suggest u find an admin job/any job that u can go to work daily without feeling u are actually going to work.. but feel like u are going to enjoy a day doing sth with ur friends[colleague]..

Enjoy ur life..

Maybe i should just get myself confined.. or sleep my life away..

Somehow my feelings when i'm outside has changed.. used to really enjoy being out of camp to slack.. but now.. i just hope i get to stay in that routine life in there.. though there is no freedom.. cause i won't have to see some things.. to think so much..

To return home to see how messed up the whole hse is.. to see how childish some of my siblings are.. it really makes me dun feel like going home..

To have to think now what? for like very long.. with different ppl having different suggestions.. cant really agree.. tiring.. Life in Camp.. lunch and dinner just go CookHse.. dun need think.. so easy..

And to make things worse, my results did not met the expectation of my mum.. it's like.. though i kinda expected the result to be like this and i'm ok with it.. i just feel guilty that i didn't work hard enuff to meet my mum's expectation..

No doubt.. when i'm in there, the trainings and stand-by-areas makes me look forward to booking out very very much.. but now.. each time i book out.. i dun seem to feel the joy i was anticipating when i'm in there..

At first i tot what my pc said was weird.. "Aiya.. Got girl won't sian liao.." .. I was like thinking.. WHAT?! got girl and can't see her, shouldn't it be worse??!! but now i realize.. no girl is more sian.. cause there won't be much ppl u'll look forward to seeing when u book out..

maybe that's y i dun enjoy booking out like i used to..